Smile Smile!
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Recently, many people are down with the I.D.S disease,short for I'm Depressed and Sad. I'm no exception as well. My precious MP4 died on me a few days ago. It was one of my most loyal device i ever had.

It had everything i want,videos,pictures even functioning as a bluetooth headset.I knew i shouldn't put it in my luggage as it will be thrown around by the custom people.

It's dead.


But i'm not going to be depressed forever because life still need to go on. Like in the message, life is a game that you can't stop playing. So why get stuck at one point forever when you can break free?

Weicheng,i know your life is in a mess now. I had things like that too.You know my plight and my situation. I may look rich and happy in everyone's eyes but in fact,i dare say i am more lonely than anyone else.

Here's a revelation, i talk to the air and my pillow everytime. I treat them as though they are real human beings.



Having a big room is not really that good.

Facing a big space with no one but you?

I want out of my life too but i know it's impossible,i've started playing this game and i shall complete it with flying colours. So anyone who are still stuck at a point,why not try breaking free and take another path? Like my saying,no one predicts the future because you make it yourself,so why make it worse?

Life is not a game like Monopoly where you go in rounds. Life is a game with an unseen ending.There are unlimited possibilities to the paths you can take.It's whether you are willing to explore new wonders.

Life is indeed the world's toughest and stressful game ever but it do have a fun part. You make the game yourself,YOU'RE the game creator.What you decided is how you go. Don't be bound by anything because you're the boss,no one can stop you.It's your own game.

For those interested,here's my situation right now.
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I myself knows how obsessed i am with Rina.I know it very very clearly so i don't need really anyone to remind me. If i had to say the truth,that would be me being obsessed with Rina is nothing but a cover. I supported her well because it's her debut and i love supporting debut stars and i admit she is real pretty and cute.I buy so much of her goods and did so much on her because i just want to numb myself.In fact,i still had a phobia and a sense of fear lingering in me.The source of it is from the incident which most of you should know. I'm still scared.Honestly,when it first happened,for one or two months,i was living in fear.Even at night,i was afraid i will be spotted by her.I was practically living in fear.Slowly it got better but a scar is a scar,there's no way you can remove it,especially emotional scars.For one month,i had fears for any women with dyed hair or plain short.Whenever i see someone resembling,i simply started sweating and my heart beats faster. Up till now,i still had a bit of phobia for really short and dyed hair girls.There was this time i heard a similar voice,without looking,i was so scared that i walked to the other end of the train.When i am alone,i am really weak and scared.Reason why i was so into Rina is probably because i want to thank her?During that period of time,her motto,Smile Smile and her signature sweet smile brightened up my life.I didn't really notice her that much but thanks to her,i still think that there are lovely girls out there.Re-watching her DVD makes me happy and forget about the troubles.I did the foolish way,numbing myself with another individual. But i cannot step out now.To me,her existence equals to a drug addict's need for drugs. She is not harmful.She is the only one that bring me back my humor and smile.Without her,i'll probably be still the sad and worried Alvin.So before anyone flames her or flame me of being overly obsessed,i just have to say i'm not.She is the medicine to my illness.Until there is a cure,i'll depend on her cheerful smiles.This is what i have to say.

That's all de arimasu!!!
P.S Naturally the message in the picture is not written by Rina but i feel that she would say that if she needs to.
And also,before you flame me saying i'm just seeking attention or what,i don't care,i can find myself 5 mins and delete all the stupid tags.
Thanks,Jac, for cheering me.It's not you fault
Twirl Twirl~