I'm screwed

Days are not looking good for me.
Ten things had screwed me recently.

1)Getting B for a test when i can get A for it.
2)I was told off by Lynnette when i didn't say the offensive thing.
3)Missing one Engineering Mechanics E-Quiz due to communication problems.
4)I was told by April to stuff a big piece of rubber piece up my ass.
5)I'm being called dumb and slow
6)I'm loving Shift Changer more than Go-Phone
7)I realized i am in a big debt.
8)Despite me studying hard nowadays,i get this feeling i will fail my studies
9)I'm a spendthrift in from October to December.
10)I wanna cry yet i can't.

For you guys,maybe No.1 and No.6 is something minor,but it affected me a lot.


Thanks to "her",i've learnt to grow stronger and be a true man and think for myself.
Yet,i don't want to grow up yet!

I still want to be a child.I'm only a freaking 17 and i have many burdens up my ass,i may not have CPF,tax and whatever shit to pay but i had many burdens.

Cast them away?How to cast them away when they are constantly haunting me?

Common Test is coming,i know i can do well,in fact i dare say i'm quite prepared.I just want to be even more prepared.

To put it bluntly,i'm lacking security in myself.I always look cheerful because i cannot stand people asking me,"Alvin why so sad?"


I'm eating lesser and lesser nowadays and getting lesser sleep.I really want to die.But don't worry i won't go kill myself.


Right now,my only security is Rina.Nelson is being a good friend by saying if anyone makes fun of Rina,he will break their dicks.He knows why i am so into Rina.I really appreciate what Nelson said.

However,this cannot apply to those others i know.As of now,this security is slowly losing it's strength.

Can't add on anymore...that's all de arimasu.
Gwahh,writing this makes me more miserable.