Meet Mona Dicksa the III

Thinking for quite some time,i had been a great jerk to everyone for the past few years,especially her. I treated her like a ragdoll for years and i don't know why am i doing all this...

I am different from the past.Gotten more vulgar and more dumb as the years passed. All i wished is to get more attention and laughter from people. I can give people the best advice but i will not apply it on myself.

Trying to be funny and stupid and pervert just to fit in is tough.I've made bad impressions in front of people,friends,family and even the public.I'm like an international jerk.

I want to change but i never do it. I just get worse and worse. Sometimes only until after a while then will i realize i have hurt that person with my words.I have no bad intentions at all.It's just that i don't know what's wrong with me.

I've sort of mentally disturb her and being irritating for a whopping 5 years.Despite her being all forgiving and nice, i can still know that deep down,she hates me.She can say she's alright but from my own point of view,she changed towards me.Well,i might be just being too sensitive but its true.I've been such a jerk towards her.And the only thing i wanna do to her now is not another stupid irritation, but a simple sorry.

I'm really sorry.

On a happy side, i went swimming with Xf,Ct and Jh. It was fun swimming again and we even explored Chinese Garden. How great is that.
That's all de arimasu...
Pardon me for my ranting.